baby steps
i hope everyone had a splendid holiday! i know i did. usually getting together with my extended family can be a tad stressful, but both christmases went very well. a lot of my cousins are now older so we can all relate to each other and have conversations about school-more so than when we were younger. so we had a great time. i was also extremely spoiled by my parents, as i am every year. i like to think that although im spoiled, im not a spoiled brat. im very appreciative of what i have and hope my parents know this.
ive been working a LOT. and im beginning to not like my job at all. i think i just need a day off. which i cant tell you when my next one is. i did have this past weekend off though. all my mom wanted for christmas was a weekend away at this condo she loves. so my family went for saturday and sunday. we went on a sleigh ride, walked around in the really nice weather, shopped. all kinds of fun christmassy stuff. we had a good time. then on sunday night when we got home my friend M had just gotten back from school. i hadnt seen her since this summer so we decided to get together for drinks. we can go months without talking and pick up right where we left off feeling as though no time had passed. thats what i love about our friendship. when we got to the bar three kids we had gone to high school and hadnt really seen since graduation were there. they offered for us to sit with them so we did, and had polite, somewhat awkward conversation with them-catching up on what everyone was doing. two of them were girls that i was never really close with, but one was a guy that i have known since kindergarden. we've grown up together, but we kind of grew apart during high school, not really hanging out in the same crowd. but when they got up to leave he asked if i was going to be around this weekend to go out for a drink, and asked for my number. i find this very interesting. we shall see if he actually calls. im not sure what the premise of the drinks is exactly. friends catching up? a date? who knows. but i found myself somewhat excited.
speaking of exciting, ive gotten a few emails back from the marine. nothing huge, but its definitely nice to hear back from him:) i wish he could call back sometime, even though i told him it was ok not to call back since it was too expensive. i try to not overdo it by sending too many emails, but i get excited and lose patience waiting to hear back from him. i just hope we can keep talking as much until he gets back.
on the other hand, ive only gotten one email from assimus. i miss her a lot but i dont want to bug her and her bf so ive tried to back off a little. i texted them awhile ago and didnt hear back, so i emailed them to make sure everything was ok and still didnt hear back for a couple days until the other night. im sad to say its almost as if-out of sight, out of mind. and im not really a fan of not talking to her everyday like im used to. and a downfall of mine is that i get stubborn after awhile and think-fine. if they dont want to talk to me, then they wont have to and i wont get in touch with them either, which doesnt help the situation either. im just sort of hurt because its not how i thought things would go over break. we'll see when school starts back up i guess.
ive also started looking into options for after graduation. big sis got me a few books to read-the turbulent twenties survival guide and a car some cash and a place to crash. both books on what to do during/after graduation and how to cope with it :p i guess she could sense my anxiety and thought i could use some help. so ive looked for jobs at hospitals in the area, but i looked for some positions at an amazing childrens hospital about 1500 miles away. i would absolutely love to work there. but its sooo far away. moving would be such a huge step for me to do on my own. but it could also be a great change for me as well. so during spring break i decided to take a trip there to see if i like it. that way if i dont i can at least cross that option off my list completely. and if i do like it-well ill figure that out when i get to that point. but its made me feel as though im starting to get myself prepared and that im starting to take a few steps in the right direction. i have something to say when i get the ever popular question, "so what are your plans after graduation?" when before it was a dumbfounded silence or shrug of the shoulders has now become some sort of plan. and it feels good.
ive been working a LOT. and im beginning to not like my job at all. i think i just need a day off. which i cant tell you when my next one is. i did have this past weekend off though. all my mom wanted for christmas was a weekend away at this condo she loves. so my family went for saturday and sunday. we went on a sleigh ride, walked around in the really nice weather, shopped. all kinds of fun christmassy stuff. we had a good time. then on sunday night when we got home my friend M had just gotten back from school. i hadnt seen her since this summer so we decided to get together for drinks. we can go months without talking and pick up right where we left off feeling as though no time had passed. thats what i love about our friendship. when we got to the bar three kids we had gone to high school and hadnt really seen since graduation were there. they offered for us to sit with them so we did, and had polite, somewhat awkward conversation with them-catching up on what everyone was doing. two of them were girls that i was never really close with, but one was a guy that i have known since kindergarden. we've grown up together, but we kind of grew apart during high school, not really hanging out in the same crowd. but when they got up to leave he asked if i was going to be around this weekend to go out for a drink, and asked for my number. i find this very interesting. we shall see if he actually calls. im not sure what the premise of the drinks is exactly. friends catching up? a date? who knows. but i found myself somewhat excited.
speaking of exciting, ive gotten a few emails back from the marine. nothing huge, but its definitely nice to hear back from him:) i wish he could call back sometime, even though i told him it was ok not to call back since it was too expensive. i try to not overdo it by sending too many emails, but i get excited and lose patience waiting to hear back from him. i just hope we can keep talking as much until he gets back.
on the other hand, ive only gotten one email from assimus. i miss her a lot but i dont want to bug her and her bf so ive tried to back off a little. i texted them awhile ago and didnt hear back, so i emailed them to make sure everything was ok and still didnt hear back for a couple days until the other night. im sad to say its almost as if-out of sight, out of mind. and im not really a fan of not talking to her everyday like im used to. and a downfall of mine is that i get stubborn after awhile and think-fine. if they dont want to talk to me, then they wont have to and i wont get in touch with them either, which doesnt help the situation either. im just sort of hurt because its not how i thought things would go over break. we'll see when school starts back up i guess.
ive also started looking into options for after graduation. big sis got me a few books to read-the turbulent twenties survival guide and a car some cash and a place to crash. both books on what to do during/after graduation and how to cope with it :p i guess she could sense my anxiety and thought i could use some help. so ive looked for jobs at hospitals in the area, but i looked for some positions at an amazing childrens hospital about 1500 miles away. i would absolutely love to work there. but its sooo far away. moving would be such a huge step for me to do on my own. but it could also be a great change for me as well. so during spring break i decided to take a trip there to see if i like it. that way if i dont i can at least cross that option off my list completely. and if i do like it-well ill figure that out when i get to that point. but its made me feel as though im starting to get myself prepared and that im starting to take a few steps in the right direction. i have something to say when i get the ever popular question, "so what are your plans after graduation?" when before it was a dumbfounded silence or shrug of the shoulders has now become some sort of plan. and it feels good.
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