it's the little things

this weekend was so great. big sis came up to visit and we went shopping when she got here on saturday..and we ended up getting more things for ourselves rather than christmas shopping for everyone else...whoops. but we had a good time. sunday we spent the day getting ready for an early christmas dinner that i was having here for some friends from school. assimus and i had planned it and were expecting about 15-20 people. and no, my apartment is not that big. assimus and i had done the groceries earlier in the week so big sis and i did some last minute errands then set up and starting cooking. its a lot of work to prepare food for that many people! but it was fun doing it-we got a few laughs too. everyone started showing up around 6 and all the guys gathered around the tv for the pats game which was good. we ended up having about 14 or so people come, and i think it was a success. everyone seemed to enjoy the food, and the company. it was a good way to see everyone before break.


yesterday big sis and i went to get our matching tattoos! i already have one, but big sis didnt so she was a bit nervous. however deciding to get mine on my ribs made me a little nervous too. she wanted to go first, thinking if she watched me get mine she might not get hers haha. they didnt take very long, although it was pretty painful, but they look great! im so glad we did it together:)


now for a change of subject...
my junior year in high school i met this really great guy while actually trying to set him up with one of my close friends. she wasnt interested, but it got us talking and getting to know each other. at the time, judging from his reputation and just what i had heard from others about him, i didnt really think he was my type-partier, smoked pot, bad boy type. however as i got to know him, he was-still is-the sweetest most caring individual. we ended up talking every night for hours, about anything. he definitely had my best interests at heart and treated me amazingly. for reasons that i cant really explain or understand myself, when he asked me out i said no. he was willing to change to be the guy that i thought would be right for me. maybe in a sense i didnt want him to have to change? to this day it remains a huge regret of mine and something i would go back and change if i could. but thankfully, being the amazing guy he is, we remained close friends-talking and hanging out. he was my date for prom that year and we had a great time. my senior year (he was a year younger than i was in school) we grew apart a little, not talking as much, but we stayed good friends. when i went away to college we pretty much stopped talking, unless once in awhile either of us would call the other out of the blue to catch up. i love that we can not talk for months, but pick up the phone and talk as though no time has passed. he joined the marines after graduation and moved to california. although he was a great guy in high school, joining the marines was a good decision for him and he has matured immensely and become an amazing individual and im so proud of what hes done. maybe he has become the person i thought he could be back then-or wanted him to be? this summer we started talking a lot again, a few times a week, but i havent seen him in a few years because hes been in cali. we attempted to meet up a few times, but something always got in the way. then he got deployed at the end of october before i had a chance to see him, but we kept in touch until then, with a promise that we would keep in touch while he was gone. until he could get ahold of me, all i could do was wait. well on monday while we were at the tattoo parlor, assimus answered my phone, and not understanding who it was, passed it over to me.
"Hey you, do you know who this is??"
i was beyond excited. a huge smile crept over my face and my stomach suddenly became home to hundreds of butterflies. he was calling. from across the world. to talk to me. of all people he could call to talk to, he chose me. its a great feeling. we talked for about 10 minutes and he said he finally found my email after losing it, so there was an email waiting for me at home:) needless to say i checked it immediately when i got home. the rest of the day i floated on this high. we've talked on the phone a million times, but this was different. one because i knew he was safe, but two because the fear i had of us losing connection again was gone.

i will keep you updated on emails:) but for now i just have to make it through the rest of this week. last classes were yesterday and finals start tomorrow. thank god i only have two to study for. tomorrow is my first final-english-blech. my other final isnt until saturday in nursing-but worth wayyy more than i care to remind myself. then i get to head home on sunday-which im not sure if im as excited as usual? maybe im too stressed to think of it now. who knows.

for now its back to the books...